Am I allowed to claim that I am depressed in writing form? 'Cause I totally am. For more or less three years. I feel like I've been floating around the sea and I can't see the horizon anywhere I look. I don't know where the fuck I am heading.
While depression might be a good thing (I mean, some of the greatest artists were depressed, right?), I am not that creative. So, I try to do a few activities to get my mind off things:
1. Try to connect with people. However, at 27, I don't think anybody my age would want to make new friends. You know, real friends. Actual people who will help you when you need them and vice-versa. So, I guess I'm failing miserably and it doesn't help the depression. I made a few friends, though. I guess, that's enough and I should quit complaining.
Some folks I met through Tumblr.
With Sam (as Belle) and Helga (as a Sim)
2. Going to shows and parties. I've been doing this heavily since before depression (BD) and it sorta reminds me of how lonely I am but at the same time my friends are there. So, yeah, I don't know how to feel about this.
I'm in this photo with The Strangeness, trust me.
Ciudad.
3. Watch comedy. With the exception of a few dramas (Madmen, Breaking Bad, Boardwalk Empire, and, American Horror Story) I watch sitcoms exclusively.
This was my Halloween costume,
"First of all, we have a team photo"
I shoulda went as Jesse Pinkman, but, I forgot.
I like American Horror Story while I don't generally like horrors
They keep me entertained. I keep laughing. I keep forgetting how alone and lonely I am. They also remind me about it. I guess, this wasn't a bright idea too? I like laughing, though. So, I don't mind.
Patrice Oneal kinda minds, but, really doesn't
4. Write songs. While I said above that I am not very creative (or good at doing this), I still enjoy it quite a lot. I think this might be the only thing that doesn't seem like a complete failure for me, but, when Mike Kinsella is your peg, you might really get depressed 'cause he's really good.
So yeah, I just try to do the things I enjoy and milk the crap out of it. 'Cause there's no sense in staying depressed if you're not good at it.
Photo credits: Mij Bautista, Paul Wenceslao, Shinji Manlangit, and VLC Media Player
